These names are disrespectful. A lot of girls have insecurities about personal topics like this. Although I don’t have many body image problems, I know a lot of girls who do. They want to impress guys, but how could they when guys call them fat.. ugly… etc? This contributes to the overwhelming cases of eating disorders and depressions. A lot of people think that it’s because of the media and the magazines. I actually think a big part of it is because of what people say about each other.

So just like all my blogs, I don’t just come up with this out of the top of my head to blog about. Yesterday night around 1 a.m. I was on twitter reading an disagreement between one of my friends and this other boy (who was my friend). We’ll call my friend, a girl, Emily and the boy Johnny. We all use to be friends when we went on a mission trip last year. Johnny use to be very religious. Anyway he posted on twitter about not believing in a God and called Jesus a zombie. I respected his options but Emily didn’t really like how he was insulting every Christian, especially since he use to be one. So they get into an argument and one of Johnny’s friends jokingly said that they would eventually hook up. Johnny disagreed and said he’ll probably go after another church girl.
He said on twitter (exact words):
“I’m thinking about (girls name he was taking about. It was another girl, not Emily or I)…she’s always been into that shit. Jk she’s to fat”

I couldn’t believed he would say that. 1) The girl he called fat and him use to be really good friends. 2) She is a little on the heavier side but def. not fat. 3) It was just rude and mean. I couldn’t believe he said that. I thought that was going to far, attacking someone and making fun of the way someone looks. I started tweeting how much I hated when guys disrespect girls toward him and call them fat. Also how he would like it if he was picked on for his insecurities and the shit that goes on in his life. I just couldn’t believe how much of a hypocrite he was. He is always so negative about his life and says he has so much “shit” going on, but doesn’t realize he hurts other people. I decided to become the better person and stopped answering him when he was trying to provoke a twitter argument. I just wanted to get my point across and say that it’s not right to disrespect girls. I don’t think the message stuck with him. All he said in response was “boohoo” and “I don’t have insecurities, try to find some for me”.

Maybe I am overreacting, but stuff like this should not be tolerated. If I was the girl and I read the tweet, I would be so furious. I know her, and I know weight is an insecurity of hers. I just hate how much Johnny can be an asshole.

I saw this on my friends tumblr and thought that this was interesting. I have a lot of anxiety and get stressed out a lot. Maybe this will help me…and you

I think the ones that would definitely help me are:
+ Say “no” more often: I tend to always want to please people and be happy about everything. I always like to do things for others, but sometimes I need to think about myself first and about the amount of time I have in my life.
+ Set priorities in life: That is a big one because I think everyone needs goals in life and thinking about them helps.
+ Quit trying to “fix” other people: I have a tendency to want to try to make everything better and perfect. If I just leave it to nature, I am sure everything will work out.
+ Take each day at a time… you have the rest of your life: We really do, I think I just need to live for the day and do what I want to do. You should only do stuff that make you happy.

Anyway right now I got a job at a local ice cream place. I just go the job and I’ve had a lot of experience working with ice cream before because I worked at Rita’s Italian Ice (Anyone get ice on free ice day on Tuesday?) Besides that one of my good friends really wants a job. She keeps complaining about how she needs a job and how she wants more money. However, she doesn’t really try that hard to get one. I’m having a hard time being happy for my job because I know she’ll just be jealous and not as happy for me. I don’t know, I feel like I always give and give to make everyone else happy, but they won’t do the same for me. She’ll probably just get jealous and complain more about not having a job. I don’t want her to be jealous or anything. Also I hate when people are mad at me… but that is totally a different story.

This problem is about college next year. The private university that I want to go to cost about $56,000 per year. That’s a SHITLOAD of money. I got an 8,000 scholarship, but I’ve been getting more money from other schools. I called this school to see if they would match scholarships, and they said they would not. That really is a bummer considering that I really want to go to to this school. My top three schools consider of 1 public university and 2 private. All three schools offer me something different. It is cheaper to go to both of those schools.

I really want to go to this school but I don’t want to pay the money. The major and profession I want to go into, calls for a masters or higher degree. That means I would need to go to schooling after. For my undergraduate, all four years, would be close to paying for a house. That is insane. This is why I hate American colleges. Why couldn’t we be more like other countries? Part of me is telling me to go where I want to go. I’ll get the best education there for what I want to do. A downside (that has nothing to do with money) is that I know someone who might be in the same school as me and I don’t really want to see her for my college years yet I know that shouldn’t factor my decision.

This is just really hard for me because instead of just choosing a college for four years, I am choosing an investment. We’ll see how it goes.

Reasons Why I don’t like Crowd Surfers
1. They kick you in the head. I’ve been to many concerts to know that their legs go flailing, almost like a dead fish. They don’t mean to kick you in the head (or at least I hope not), but it still always happens.
2. They are heavy. I don’t want to try to lift up someone twice the size of me. I am 5’2 and about 115 pounds. I can’t lift someone who weighs more than me. Also it’s rarely the tiny people that crowd surfer. Usually they are the bigger ones.
3. Boys who crowd surf. All Time Low concert’s generally have girls, usually starting at 12 or 13. Those girls can’t lift up guys. I despise when boys crowd surf. They are usually much heavier than girls, even if they are tiny.
4. They distract me from the concerts. I am constantly watching the back of me to make sure someone doesn’t land on me. People throw the people because they don’t want them either. I don’t want to get knock unconscious so every so often I need to look back.
5. Nobody want’s to carry you to the front. Many people just want you away from them so they throw or push you in any direction. There have also been times where people don’t catch them and they fall. Yesterday at least three people fell because people would throw them and the fans would just back away.

Reasons to not Crowd Surf
1. Stuff Stolen. My cousin went crowd surfing and people pulled stuff out of his pockets. People aren’t always nice and the place is dark. It’s a perfect place for them to steal stuff.
2. You get groped . Ewwww? right? I wouldn’t want sleazy people touching my body or butt. One of my friends who did it once, got her butt pinched and smacked. It’s not really a comfortable thing.
3. Might fall and get seriously hurt. Like what I said before, people don’t always “carry” the person. Sometimes they drop them. Falling on wood floor does not sound pleasant.
4. Separated from friends. At most of the concerts I go to, the crowd surfers go from the back to the front. If you make it to the front, then how will you find your friends again? it seems like an necessary hassle. It’s already hard to find people.

I’m not saying that you shouldn’t do crowd surfing I am just stating why I hate it when people do it. Maybe this will make you re-think crowd surfing and how much other people don’t like it. It might be fun, however I never have tried. I am happily content going to concerts and listening to music.

This all starts my ex-boyfriend. We broke up about two months ago and it was pretty mutual. We had problems, so it was understandable that our time was limiting. At first everything was fine and we got back to normal trying to “be friends”. We share one best friend and we have a class together. I know we broke up, but I am trying to be friends him. I make an effort to talk to him, be nice to him, smile and say hello. He hardly does the same for me. Whenever I talk to him, he always looks sad and is very short with me. He tends to try to disagree with me. He doesn’t talk to me like he talks to everyone else. I understand that we broke up, but we only went out for like 3 1/2 months.. In the morning sometimes my friends and his friends will talk so we will be there. I can feel tension there. He doesn’t talk to me or look me in the eye. He rarely even says hi to me.

This is really hard for me because I never lost someone who was close. How do you deal with this? It is driving me crazy. I like to be liked and I hate it when people are mad at me. I don’t like the awkwardness or the tension. I wish I could call him and make things better (I try to make stuff better), but I feel like it will just make it worse. I don’t want to force a friendship, we don’t need to be friends. I just don’t want him to be so rude. How do you get over people and not care if they don’t like you? I need advice on that.

I am just a very indecisive person. I try to weight the pros and cons of the decisions at hand. I use to be horrible at it, but I’ll like to give myself some more credit. At least I can make decision although they are often tough for me. It’s not that I don’t like change. I believe change can be good (or bad), but let’s be hopeful and wish for good. I think I am afraid of making the wrong choice, but is there every a “wrong choice”. There are poor choices or unwise choices. I think I want my life to be perfect (yea like that is going to happen lol).

So today I went to an admitted students day at a college (which I do not want to name for private reasons). I met with faculty and students there. It was quite interesting to see so many accepted students. I could see myself fitting in there and I know I would have a good time. Isn’t college what you make it? It can be as good or as sucky as you want it? (Sorry for my poor word choice there). Whenever my friends think of college they have a “perfect” school or a school that they know they want to go too. I do not, each school offers something unique and different then the other. Although there will be other tough decisions in life, i think college is one of them. I do not want to transfer because I make friends better overtime and I like to start and finish with one school. Also, I realized it’s about feeling and being comfortable at the school. Maybe the school is putting on a different front then what actually goes on? There are a lot of decisions I will have to make by May 1 (deposit deadlines) and I haven’t heard back from 4 schools yet. I am getting antsy because my time is being shortern. They say that “college is one of the best investments”. Hopefully it’ll pay off and hopefully I’ll love the school I go too, yet I have to make the decision first.

If you go to college, how did you choose your college and why?

I know my blogs are heavily college base and change, but this is what is occurring in my life and what I think it’s important. And yes, I feel much more secure with this blog post than the other.

I do not like the idea of suicide nor ever will. I am very sorry to hear that Tyler Clementi had to die by suicide, but there were other ways to deal with pain. This topic might seem morbid, but I believe that suicide is the “easy” way to escape problems. I may never understanding the whole idea of suicide because I never became close, I never got close to killing myself. My friend Jenn thinks that suicide is “selfish” because of all the other people you are hurting; family, friends and people who really care. Then again, I believe that we are put on earth to do something, life is a crazy adventure and our job is to make the most of it. Whenever people commit suicide I can’t help but thinking of how selfish it is. People want to live, there are people who would do anything to get a shot to live. There are people in Africa who are dying of Starvation, women in Iran who are being stoned because they have no rights, and also there are patients who are dying because of sickness that is not curable. There are kids dying of cancer, people who are living with AID/HIV. People are getting into unfortunate disasters like car accidents.

I do not know why people want to give up life. Life is all about the ups and downs. There are amazing things that are happening in the world. Life is an adventure and it’s fun when it’s good. I wish everyone saw the good in life and how we only have one life to live. If things are sucky, it will get better, it should get better. Everyone has bad days, but most people prevail through them. I wish Tyler could have saw the good in life. The loving family he had. The great school he got accepted too. His amazing talent at Violin. These are the moments in life that should never be sacrifice. I believe everyone should live their lives to the fullest!

I am very passionate about this topic. I do not want any disrespectful comments if you agree, but I do like to hear opinions!

Then there is this girl, she is Jewish. She goes to temple each week and youth group. She goes to all her youth group events and her best friends all go to her temple. She even went to Israel as a foreign exchange student and completed her spring semester of junior year there. Her ex boyfriend was Jewish and he went on the trip with her. She is very religious and is not allowed to marry or date someone who isn’t Jewish. He or she must convert.

These two high school seniors are dating in my school. It’s very hard for them to be together because both of their parents would disapprove. Muslims and Jewish people both have a lot of tension with each other because of the Palestine and Israel conflict that is going on. I admire both of them for dating, even though their religions make them not together. Religion is important to some people (I am a Christian), but I am not going to let it define who I am going to like and who I am not. I am happy that in the 21st century, we are not letting religion dictate our lives. We respect each others religions, but still do what our hearts want us too. My two friends are perfect together, they get along great and are adorable. Although religion is important and influential in both of their lives, they realized that if you really like someone, religion can’t get in the way.

I decided to search tumblr for those “tumblr 30 day challenges” and I found this one:
A friend you have lost that you’re better off without/one you wish you had back

A friend that I’ve lost touch with is my ex-friend Steven. We became friends freshman year. My best friend and I did not know anyone at that table besides some of the guys. Also since it was freshman year, we did not know anyone else in our lunch. I did not know Steven beforehand, but I knew some of the others. He was a scrawny boy, with blonde hair and blue eyes. He was very funny, nice and easy to talk too. He was not the brightest kid, but he let my friend and I “tease/flirt” with him. He always had a magnetic necklace, that my friend and I use to take. I wore his sweatshirt a few times. I felt cool lol. Anyway sophomore year he started going to the gym more. He began working out everyday, and he wasn’t “skinny steve” anymore, now he was big steve. He had so much muscle in his torso, that he had chicken legs. He began to hang out with different people. He was turning into a douche. He began to act all “macho” and “tough”. He would curse and disrespect girls. He acted like he was a Guido (yes, like the ones at the Jersey Shore, and yes I live in New Jersey). He would pretend that he didn’t know us. At first I was hurt because I hate losing friends, no matter who they are. I thought we would be friends, but boy was I wrong. I figured I was good friends with him freshman year, that I would invite him to my sweet 16 sophomore year. He told me he would come to my party with friends of his that I invited. They all came, but he didn’t. He went to hang out with a girl. This annoyed me so much, it was rude and we haven’t really been friends since. I saw him junior year because he was in my gym class. He kept bragging about how he was having sex with his girlfriend for after prom. Seriously? So the moral of the story is, do not become a douche and that people really do change. On his facebook, he is so disrespectful. Nobody would want him as a boyfriend and he is not that smart. I don’t think he’ll go to college.